It has been a rainy week in Charlotte, NC, and I am feeling as blah as the weather because I have been painfully reminded that life is not all sunshine and roses. When someone you know and care about loses their child, and a sister loses her baby sister, life takes on a different meaning. And if you are human, you too can feel and understand their grief and sadness.
We prayed and prayed for Keri to be healed in our human meaning of healing. For God to give her back to us, her family, her husband, and her children. Keri’s human healing was not to be God’s will, and God is sovereign. I say it that blunt way because it is how I need to hear it. There are no arguments, no pleading when God’s will is going to be accomplished. And yet, the human side of me wants to argue and intends to plead one more time, even if it is to ask for resurrection. It is a hard lesson for me with my walk with Christ. I can always find a hundred ways from Sunday why He should listen to me one more time. God tells me to sit down, be still, and listen to Him. Yes, God is Sovereign. And He said, “No,” to Keri staying here.
In the bible, God tells us that His ways are not our ways, and I know God thinks and perceives on a level I am unable to comprehend. Knowing and trusting His sovereignty does not take away the pain or the grief felt by us humans. So I must remind myself that Jesus took our pain to the cross, experiencing every minute facet of human emotion. He knows our pain intimately, and He knows Keri’s family is suffering. I believe Jesus grieves with them and will continue to until they see Keri again.
For now, my choice is prayer for Keri’s family and throughout the next year to remember them as they move forward without her but with an amazing faith in our Savior.
For Keri.
You walked this earth with a heavenly grace that sparkled throughout the universe.
Generously illuminating the many lives, you touched with your hope, grace, and love.
Were you one of God’s earthly angels given this short amount of time?
And with your job well done, it was time for God to call you home?
We will not know for now.
Those you have left here find ourselves a little lost and our world somewhat dimmer.
But you, dear Keri, will carry on as the Guardian Angel shepherding over your precious loved ones.
Shining your angelic light through them, and watching their very steps, until the day you meet again in glorious Heaven above.